Surrender

I’m surrendering to you

Giving everything I am

My hopes, My fears

My dreams and My doubts

surrender

/səˈrɛndər/ Spelled Pronunciation [suhren-der]

–verb (used with object)

1.

to yield (something) to the possession or power of another; deliver up possession of on demand or under duress: to surrender the fort to the enemy; to surrender the stolen goods to the police.

4.

to give up, abandon, or relinquish (comfort, hope, etc.).

5.

to yield or resign (an office, privilege, etc.) in favor of another.

Surrendering means no longer having control of something

Man, that takes so much pressure off of me

When I really started to realize

That I didn’t have to worry about my fears and doubts

That God was in Control of them

And not only that

But that he understood it

He understands that fact that I can’t and don’t understand

Surrender has brought such peace in my life

Is it always easy?

Heck NO!

I think surrendering is one of the hardest things I’ve ever done

Not that I’m anywhere

Near really grasping this whole idea of surrender

But I don’t have to worry about that either

Cause God has my Back

And he’s in control

NOT ME

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SONGS:

Surrender – Lincoln Brewster

Ready Now – Desperation Band

No Sacrifice – Jason Upton

Majesty – Delirious?

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Published in: on November 27, 2008 at 10:10 pm  Comments (1)  

Waiting

I hate waiting

I’m to impatient

I want things to happen NOW!

I want answers now

I hate being still

Not moving

And silence screams at me

I can’t stand silence

I need to turn up the music

Or even talk aloud

Just to Run

Escape the quiet

Yet here you have me

Sitting still

In the silence

Waiting on you

I want to shout

I want to run

But instead I just stay

Waiting for you to make me move

Waiting for direction to come

So come!!!

I can’t jump until you tell me to jump

I won’t let this be like last time

When I moved to soon

And got beaten and bruised

This time WILL be different

This time I will wait

Till I can’t stand it

Then I will wait even more

Because I know

That things will happen in your time

In your perfect timing

Until then I am Here

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SONGS:

I Can’t Do This – Plumb

The City We Live In – Jonezetta

Hungry (Falling on My Knees) – Rachel Milstead

In the Silence – Jason Upton

Published in: on November 27, 2008 at 9:34 pm  Leave a Comment  

Miss You

You were meant for so

Much more than this

You were created

For incredible things

The world is waiting with

Arms wide open

Waiting to embrace you

Take it by storm

Don’t be afraid to leap

To step out and take a chance

If you don’t try you’ll never know

Stay true to who you are

Your future is waiting

Go for it!!!

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Why do you have to leave?

I’m going to miss all the good times we had

I love how you can always make me laugh

How we can talk for hours

And still have stuff to say

I’m going to miss your hugs

How you always yell my name when you see me

I’ll miss your smile

And listening to you sing

But as much as I’ll miss you

I’m really proud of you

For making your dreams come true

Keep chasing them

And don’t forget about me

And know, that no matter what

I am always here for you

I know you’ll be amazing

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SONGS:

This is Your Life – Switchfoot

It’s Me- Nevertheless

Bright Lights – Matchbox20

Umbrellas – Sleeping at Last

Published in: on November 27, 2008 at 9:16 pm  Leave a Comment  

Where are you?

Ok God

So this is it

You said you wanted me to be vulnerable

SO HERE I AM

I’m tired and broken

Bruised and alone

On the edge of giving up

I can’t keep going

SO WHERE ARE YOU?

I feel abandoned

Like I’ve been left in an unknown land

With a map that I can’t read

But been told to just figure it out

I don’t need the whole picture…

But I need SOMETHING! ANYTHING!

I’m ok with waiting

But I just need to know that you haven’t forgotten about me

I can’t keep fighting

I’m weak and exhausted

I feel that I’m fighting

Just to keep my head above water

I am drowning

WHERE ARE YOU GOD?

WHERE???

WHY AREN’T YOU ANSWERING????

I want nothing more

Than to be in your will

To be close to you

But I’ve let go

And now I’m just falling

Into a dark deep unknown

And I don’t know where you are!

I cry out

I need you!!!

I’m not letting you go

Even though it feels like you’ve let me go

I’m clinging to you

Clinging to the truth

That you still love me

BUT

I NEED YOU!

I NEED YOU TO SPEAK!

WHERE ARE YOU???

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SONGS:

Broken- Lifehouse

Closer than Angels – David Walker

We are Broken – Paramore

He Loves Us – John Mark Mcmillian

Published in: on November 27, 2008 at 8:18 pm  Leave a Comment  

Be Still

Psalm 46:10 (NIV)

Be still, and know that I am God;
       I will be exalted among the nations,
       I will be exalted in the earth.”

(The Message) 

“Step out of the traffic! Take a long,
      loving look at me, your High God,
      above politics, above everything.”

(NAS)

10“Cease striving and know that I am God;
         I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”

(NLV)

 10 Be quiet and know that I am God. I will be honored among the nations. I will be honored in the earth.

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This is something that God has really been talking to me about lately.

   Being still, being quiet, not striving, taking a long look at who he is.

I’m the kindof person that is always on the go, I’m always moving, Always talking, listening to my extremely loud music, Even during worship I’m jumping around and I just can’t be still… I’m always moving.

In the past few weeks God has just been pushing me into these still quiet places with him. I’ll be at church worshiping and I just hear him say Katie don’t move, don’t even sing. Just let the words wash over you… Feel my spirit. I’ve never felt so close to him as I’m in those times.

Another time I was driving to work really early one morning and the Sun was rising… I don’t get to see that very often… I had to reach down and turn my radio off and just soak in the beauty and goodness. It’s amazing, it’s everywhere around us. It’s spring time now and everything we see is coming to life green leaves are back on the trees, the flowers are blooming, everything seems brighter and even more beautiful.

So take the time today to just apprectiate the everyday Mundane things that happen to you. It’s a great mood booster!

Published in: on April 1, 2008 at 3:19 pm  Leave a Comment  

These are a few of my favorite things

So you know the song from the Sound of Music?

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things

Cream colored ponies and crisp apple streudels
Doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favorite things

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winters that melt into springs
These are a few of my favorite things

When the dog bites
When the bee stings
When I’m feeling sad
I simply remember my favorite things
And then I don’t feel so bad

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Well I decide today to think of some of my favorite things

* Riding in my car with the windows down, Singing very loud with the Radio

* An unexpected late night phone call from a friend

* Quotes that inspire me

* Dinner with my entire Family

* Summer rains (you know when it’s hot and sunny and a cool rain comes down)

* Finding a book that is so good I can’t put it down

* Mixed Cd’s/Tapes (I know we live in a mp3 world but nothing makes me happier than getting a mixed tape or Cd from a friend)

* Shopping for little goodies to put in gift baskets for my friends

* A nice big bowl of Ice Cream

* A concert that is so amazing I talk about it for weeks

* Playing with my Nephew

* When I’m actually able to write something that is beautiful and compelling, something that people can relate too

* A nice long Hug after a long day

* Watching other people (especially Kids) worship God

* Black & White Photography

* Realizing that I’m going to be really early for something, So I can drive slower and take the back roads

* Anything to do with the Theatre

* Laughing so hard I feel I could burst

* When the kids I nanny for yell KATIE! and run up and give me hugs

* The laundry detergent isle at the grocery store

Published in: on March 28, 2008 at 9:06 pm  Leave a Comment  

Random Pages

I have a very bad habit of jotting things down in a notebook and then a year or so later running across what I wrote and having NO clue why I wrote it.

Like today, I found a page in one of my notebooks (that by the handwriting I can tell I wrote in the last year or so) that says….

Chasing dreams

Living lies

Kissing strangers

Making eyes

Huh? if it were only the first two lines I could imagine that they were probably topics I wanted to write about. But I haven’t the faintest idea what it could be a list for, I even googled them to see if they were maybe songs that I liked… But nope no luck

What would you guess they are?

Published in: on March 28, 2008 at 8:27 pm  Comments (1)  

Living outside of Ordinary

I was thinking

   So often I hear this message that as followers of Christ we shouldn’t settle for ordinary lives.

 

And I understand that, but I think that most of the time the message that actually comes across when people hear that is that they think they need to quite their jobs and start a non-profit organization, or become a full time missionary or go to seminary and become a pastor. And while all of those things are good and great,

But I think it stirs up a faults sense of discontentment in us. A sense that what we are doing is not ok, that all the missionaries and pastors are more spiritual than us “normal people”

   And that isn’t the point at all. If we were all to quit our jobs to become missionaries or pastors, who would reach out in our work places? In our schools? In our neighborhoods? So if you ever hear that message I want to encourage you to look at it from a different side of the coin.

    Don’t settle for the ordinary in your life, which I guess means don’t settle for second best or half done… Everything you do, no matter what you do, do it the best that you know how. That’s is what living outside of the ordinary is

 

You don’t have to be an ordained minister to reach out to people,

    Find the people around you and make them your mission.

If that means bring cookies to work or helping a neighbor move

    Be aware, there are always opportunities to live outside of the ordinary.

Published in: on July 16, 2007 at 11:01 pm  Comments (1)  

So THIS is life

I stand Alone

   With the waves crashing against my legs

The wind whips my hair all around

I see the storm

  Moving quickly toward me

Yet I cannot make myself move

I am rooted deep within the sea

   My feet are buried calf deep

In the wet moist sand of the under belly of the ocean

The grains are whirling in the wind

   Stinging my bare skin

I watch a gull fighting against the force of air

   And yet I still cannot budge

I hear the rain as it starts to shoot out of the sky

   But I’m numb to the beating I know is coming

I shiver from the cold that has seemingly snuck up on me

   A long piece of sea weed grabs my leg

And holds on as if it’s afraid to meet the shore

   As I look back I see that the land has leaped far away from me

I stretch my arms out

Tilt my head toward the sky

And I let the rain pour over me

   Washing away all the pain and dirt

The sorrow and fears

I begin to breathe in deep refreshing breaths of salty air

    I feel free

    I feel relaxed

And just then the sun light begins to peek out at me

As if to say, did you miss me???

I pull my legs from the sands

And let the waves take away the last remaining bits of my pain

   And as I slowly make my way back

   Through the waters toward the shore

I feel the heat of the sun on my back

I feel the hard ground against my feet

I lean down and pick up a piece of drift wood

    As I carve the words into the soil

I stop to watch a gull land near by curious by what I would write

   I walk away to let the oceans slowly eat my words

“SO THIS IS LIFE”

Published in: on July 9, 2007 at 11:06 pm  Comments (2)  

The Rick Harris Experiance

I went to Charleston to help chaperon a youth trip.

On the way home I recorded this video of our Van listening to Norma Jean

I came home edited it, added some new music….

So check it out

Published in: on June 16, 2007 at 6:23 pm  Comments (1)